I have lots I need to blog about, but I need to talk about myself first. I embarked on a new spiritual journey, about a day before I returned to Thailand (yes I went back haha). For the uninitiated, a fast is a period of time where you give up something you like (like a certain food, sex, booze, whatever), and whenever you get a craving you pray for the temptation to go away. I figured it would do wonders for my discipline too. So the idea, for me, is to give up meat, something that I had been wanting to do for a while, for 40 days.
Anyone who knows me will know that I can't really live without meat. Chicken is my favourite meat, and I absolutely adore seafood like fish and prawns. So it's been quite a challenge to see the person across the table scoff down fried chicken and cashew nut rice and slurp tom yam kung while I look at my greasy veggie omelette. It's even more of a challenge in Bangkok, where there are mixed rice stalls where you choose your own dishes. The stall that I went to with P'Som had vegetable dishes, yes, but they were all mixed with meat. Poor P'Som had to eat two dishes all by herself. I think it's quite pointless if you just pick out vegetables in food mixed with meat because the flavour would have seeped in already. I was thinking about fish and how good they are, but I thought it would be proper to go the whole way. Since I'm not really concerned about not killing life and eggs are not meat, I do still eat eggs.
In fact, I've eaten too much egg in the past two weeks in Thailand as they're about the only things that definitely do not contain any trace of meat. At JJ Mall, they had shabu shabu and I had mushrooms and tamago that tasted like they'd gone bad, and them evil people tried to tempt me >:(
Don't get me wrong, I love how it feels because I'm definitely eating more vegetables than I normally would, and I feel so much better than before (read: not as sluggish). I still get cravings for meat, but I don't feel that they are necessary for my body. I've been eating more bad foods though, with lots of ice-cream, chocolate and potato chips! I need to cut down on that.
I am not vegetarian; I just don't eat meat for the time-being. It's been incredible - I've been praying more constantly, for myself as well as for other people, and I love being in touch with God regularly. I've been growing a lot in Him, and it is rewarding spiritually. I found out that I adore vegetables and egg now, and that I definitely don't need meat. I'm considering giving up meat permanently, seriously.
One week ago, I decided to go one step further and take off carbonated drinks from my menu. So far I've only had cravings once, and I think this will be easier than eliminating meat. As this week comes to an end, I'm still deciding what I should take off next. I'm too attached to chocolates to take that off (it failed last week but that was because of hormones, if you get my drift) I think.
It's time I started taking good care of my body, especially after what I've been doing to it since two years ago. I need to start valuing myself.
